We'll tell this story in parts About how our golden hearts were tarnished, sealed off, and hardened Reshaped and made so much smaller How the fearless learned they could falter Yet somehow push through the horror There's hope when life seems it's hardest After all we're just being honest My mind has lead a normal life Though some of my thoughts have become like strangers They'll visit me once in a while They're like wonderful women They appear and disappear It's almost like dating without the illusions.

Should I toss and turn before I turn the other cheek? Or do I right my wrongs despite the doubt they left in me? I'm no kind of lover I'm no kind of friend I've held it together despite the cracks you left in it. If I don't talk about the leaving what's left to say? You've been my inspiration for the pages that I've poured into this Little did I know how little meaning you would take out of it Well excuse the mess that you left my head These are only sober thoughts And we'll avoid each other So we don't have to pretend to be friends. I've done the math I've subtracted the feeling and added the guilt Watched it multiply daily and became a fraction of myself Whatever's left of me to give is without a doubt Exponentially more negative than either of us ever wished Well lets face it I was a bit under the weather But whether or not what we built together You'll share with another And then your dreams will come true.

Sometimes I lose myself just to prove that I'm worth coming back to Life is not about tragedies it's about how they're reacted to I like to think that you took the best part of your day To clean up after the mess I made Have you been busy enough to forget me? My whole intention was to remind you that nothing else is missing Well I buried the pain, blamed the hand I was dealt Even though I dealt the cards myself Always sinking into obscurity And if today is the first day of the rest of my life I would very much like to go back to yesterday When everything seemed alright. So tell me about the cost of living So tell me about the price I'll pay If I pinch hard enough I'll wake up in the bed that we've made. "How many of us are alive yet lost at sea?" said the boy And the sharks are our friends you can tell they've been smiling So dive deep and remember the treasures you keep will never shine like the ones you lose We gave up when we wanted to give in I use to give the best part of me Just so I could let the worst parts in It's a cold night and it's last call There's the small talk going on by the sidewalk By morning I'll be back on my feet But I swear there's more to me when I'm fast asleep.

And I've made my bed like I've already slept in it. It's so hard to sleep when you're full of secrets. Yet I can't seem to shake this empty feeling I have thats left me awake. I'm not myself these days I guess it's time for a change Because I've run the gamut from giving in to grave mistakes And friends and family are few and far between I'm not sure we're as close as we used to be 'Cause it's not the feelings that we miss, but the thought of it missing that still exist. It's when we can't get over it that we always seem to let it get under our skin. You probably never heard me say all those things I wrote down And screamed out, but I always imagined you did I have fallen asleep thinking of you not being able to fall asleep Because you keep hearing me say Something about cars and crashing We're all just like mannequins standing still With our hands on our hips as our hearts are on display As our our hearts are on display And when will we be able to display any kind of affection?

They say that life is "Sink or Swim" Well I'd hate to admit what an anchor I've been They say you get what you give I must have given them hell to end up like this If I had my fix then you've had your fill It's a tough pill to swallow to pretend you're not real If I could get the taste of your name off my lips Or If could just shake off the rust Rush headlong into feeling, crash into love Lately things get so twisted up and I've never known When enough is enough It's the tough choices we made It's the way we made ourselves lose faith But if the future breathes life I'll dust myself off before it all just goes to waste If you were gonna leave You should of left me like you found me 'Cause I'm wearing weak and thin I'm holding onto each breathe before I let another one in And one day we'll catch up on how it all caught up with us It is up to me to reassemble things To not get swept up in the mess that you made of me But the thought of changing leads to fears that just maybe I will not have what it takes And that's a fear I can not shake It's been a long day and somehow I think I lost my spark I tried to leave my finger print but instead left a mark I can't remember, but I know it was a great day I have to look back to see the progress we made. How did we end up like this? I'll take what you give and you'll break what I mend. You should of left me like you found me 'Cause I'm wearing weak and thin I'm holding onto each breathe before I let another one in And one day we'll catch up on how it all caught up with us It is up to me to reassemble things To not get swept up in the mess that you made of me But the thought of changing leads to fears that just maybe I will not have what it takes And that's a fear I can not shake

I dream, whether or not I'm asleep It's safe to say that that's the big difference between you and me You hang your head and play our heart-strings I have no love for who you are I know who you used to be What's there to say You're wasting away I poured my heart out and I threw it away So keep believing that you can Make it through the night Cuz it's this cold breeze And their blank stares That's got you scared Your days are numbered and your flame is burning out I came to conquer when you came to give in To all your excuses and live like you're dead All I know is when you reach the end, you'll be wishing you didn't turn your back on your friends.

We dig holes into the hearts of our lovers and friends How many of us have the courage to fall into them? How many of us chose to leave before the holes were sealed? Even if you fold the hand you can't reverse the pain you chose to deal I've started doubt all the lines I wrote To the hope they had and to the nights they stole And today we will learn to appreciate That my past is the pain I chose to tolerate I've settled for the sentiment It's easier than meaning it My hands were never steady enough to stop the bleeding and.... This winter I'll be staying home I'll hang my hopes with the Winter coats And fold my burdens next to everything that I've outgrown If I'm the company you want to keep Then keep your distance I'll write a song and hope that someone listens Now look what I've done I let the sins of my father determine what I love I'm a broken record plus a few more scratches I can barely stand myself None the less stand for something I know that better tales get told And ours is just a footnote But sometimes I like to think that you're an image in the smoke Held in my lungs and exhaled before it's had a chance To burn a hole through my throat