I'm far from broken. It was a test of my strength as the stressed I suppressed left a hole in my chest. I'd take the time to list off everything that has pissed off me, but that would be so exhausting. Somethings never change except for the stories that were told to me, but see somethings stay the same 'case misery loves its company.

I've kept this rope off of my neck. One over correction away from a wreck. I waste my days away in my bed to cope with the feeling that I'm already... Pardon the mess of this pessimist. I put a hole in my head to pour out whats left. I pieced together the picture. Replayed every part in my head. Exchanged the pain for pleasure in someone else's bed. I got this feeling over whelming me. I'm not myself and I can barely sleep and I don't think that I will ever be happy with who I am. Have you been listening? I felt more alone when you were right here next to me and I will never, ever again carry the same thoughts that did my father in. To hell with forgiveness you have only ever been in business for yourself. Yet since the beginning we've ended our evenings drunk to numb how it felt... And yet I'm still in disbelief on how I let this get the best of me, 'cause every night has been a fist fight with myself. Do or die, but I'll do it for no one else. So I broke one hand with the other and every lover I encountered on the way discovered that they were just replacements. They couldn't reach the spaces I chose to waste my days in. It's strange skin to fit in when you're watching the end of this broken friendship blossom again. Lost in the thought of the life that I've led, a tall tale... Would you tell it to the frogs or a friend? I promise this all isn't as lost as it seems. Well I've been talking in tongues, but I might just say something you believe. Been so weak for so long that even when I'm right I'm still wrong. Yet I know that I can... Because I gave up on giving up it's the thought of being gone when there's a couple mother fuckers that need to know that they were wrong. Despite all that I've lost I've given all that I got to give and that's my reason to live. I know that you played a part in it, but persevere till you're pardoned then part ways with the darkness. You only use it as armor. See I don't think that you need it. You've always threaded the needle. You're just as strong as you've ever been. Here's to the road ahead...

I can barely breathe unless you're next to me. You're a breath of fresh air in a room of second hand smoke. Someone shut all the windows just to see if it would make me choke and if you ever want to call a quits... lean in close and suffocate me with a kiss. I still remember the day that it happened again. So, I held myself back. I didn't let anyone in and the silence was so deafening. Just two kids that keep expecting the worst. I am wondering who'll be the one to pull the trigger first. From sun up till sun down it's the same shit in this small town. You're the sunlight to my dark clouds. There's no doubt that we'll figure something out and I won't give up on you if you promise to not give up on me. I can barely breathe unless you're next to me. I've kept my back turned to the sunset for far too long. I won't give up on you if you won't give up on me. I'll tear my heart from my chest and wear it on my sleeve.